the moment i met the husband – in addition to thinking he was using pizza to get into my pants – i pretty much knew that he was for me.
(what can i say – the heart wants what it wants. and it wanted pizza, evidently.)
so after just 3 months of dating, when i made a big move to both be closer to him and get a better job, we had the hilarious task of sorting out our living arrangements and our oh-so-serious feelings.
would we move in together after just a short period of time as a couple – or would we bear the cost of two apartments? decisions , decisions.
well, even after a lot of casual side glances at each other and drunken professions of love (as you do), we decided to just find a place for me – he would continue living at his parents. while there was no denying we were smitten, we weren’t ready to profess it to the world in the form of a shared apartment.
i mean, what would people say after all? my stars!
so we found the most perfectly perfect 1 bedroom place in an old converted century home for “me” to live in. the curved walls, warm paint colors and creeky floors were charming, and exactly what i’d hoped for.
except a funny thing happened on the way to not living together: we kinda started living together. despite the official party line being he was living at his parents, not-a-one night was spent apart in that small little pad. we cooked, ate, cleaned and cohabited as one – all in the name of living separately of course.
well, it took about 4 months of this fairly ridiculous charade before we finally threw our hands up, moved all of his shit over and started calling it “our” place.
it’s funny now looking back because i realize that while we both wanted to live together, we weren’t ready to face it.
so instead we put on a little show. we kept quietly saying stupid stuff like “oh you’re just staying over here a lot” and “your stuff is still at your parents so it’s not like you live here or anything!” to feel alright about what we really knew was going on.
these are the things we told ourselves. they may have been ridiculous lies that were fooling no one, but they are what helped us get up each morning, put on our pantaloons and march firmly into the world feeling comfortable and calm. (tipping our tiny top hats along the way, of course.)
it’s not much different here in india. i often tell myself what i need to hear to live in a state of bliss (where the chilled chardonnay and sour cream n’ onion chips roam free), even if it’s just for a few moments.
and you know what – i’m totally 100% ok with this deal. india or no india – this is the way in which we sometimes face the un-face-able – no matter how big or small.
now when i tell people our story, they are still a little shocked by the fact that we actually moved in together after just 3 months. so i always follow our beginnings, with:
“hey, you think that’s crazy – we got engaged, bought a house and got married within 6 months! and then i moved to india! that’s right, bitches!”